The Basics Begin

I often wonder what people's incentive is. What's their motivation? For life, their career, for themselves. What is it that makes us decide what it is we want. Having asked myself that question as I typed it, I'm not sure that I can answer my own question. I'm thinking it has to do with the subjective definition of "happiness" and what it means to us individually. I'd like to say that for me, happiness means a successful career as a CRNA. I've spent the last 4 1/2 years jumping from major to major searching for the perfect fit. I settled on microbiology and neuroscience and decided that between the two I'd have no trouble getting into medical school. Of course this was after I was sure that English, psychology, sociology, and nursing were the perfect fit as well, 5th's time a charm?? It doesn't' matter now, what's important is that despite having to go back to school for my RN, I'm finally positive about something that I know will make me happy in my career. The dilemma now is, only fools are positive.

 Medical school wasn't a realistic option. It's very demanding and a great doctor I work with told me once, that unless you NEED to be a doctor, don't. I often contemplate that statement and try to understand what he meant. Who NEEDS to be a doctor? No one NEEDS to be anything when you think about it. We are forced to choose a suitable career for ourselves in order to make our desired life. I have no such complaints about choosing something I love to do to fill my time. Back to my point. Being a physician was a step up from nursing which felt like a settlement, and yet the next step up to me felt too demanding. Is there a happy medium? I'm sure it could be argued, but that's not really my issue. I know what MY happy medium is and with that, I will divide and conquer. (This would be a great point for me to bookmark and "CNTRL S" per say.) In 2 years when I'm chasing what I'm describing to be fulfilling, the happy medium will have consumed my life and drove me up a wall. And knowing me, in addition to my moving addiction, changing my mind about what I want will be to follow, (typical woman) and I will have convinced myself that another career will better suit me and my needs. I won't mention the fact that as a CRNA you get to sub specialize like a physician but aren't stuck in it. You take call, but have the flexibility with hours and share the responsibility with 50-70+ colleagues. The pay is more than generous right out of school, and you spend half the time working for the same responsibility. With that said, I'm realizing I've talked myself in a circle and for self soothing purposes only, I'm sticking to being a CRNA. It's more than enough for me and with that, I rest my case.